i'll be happy

faisal asyraf. i miss him like hell. rindu tahap gaban nak matiiii. both of us da tak mcm dulu lg da. we've apart and he's happy with his life. he said that he tried to love me but when we had a big fight on 05.04.2009 and now he tries to stop loving me. OMG, how easy it is for him. how about me ? who gonna be by my side if it's not him. who gonna gives me an advice if it's not him. who gonna take good care of myself. *sigh*

pesa, who is that lucky girl that grabbed your heart ? i wan't you very bad. bad bad bad ! i am so alone and there's nothing in this world i can do until u're back here sayang ! [crying]

maybe i'm not good enough fo you kan faisal ? m, it's okayy. i'll be happy. don't worry. i'll make my life as in heaven and it's not with you ! i promise because u want me to do so. find another boy that can makes me happy. kan ? i'll find that guy. thnks .i thought that u belong with me, but it's not gonna happen. i'm just a girl that doesn't have any part of your life.

no words to say except iloveyou till death tears apart :)

get well pesa

pesa pesa. get well. i'll pray for your health. i'm really sorry. ily for sure. bye

dupdap :)

nahhh, dupdap dupdap. first met at LIBRARY. fuhh,thank GOD, it was going well. feel perfectly happy. :) he always raising his eyebrows at me when i looked at him. fuhh, menggoda. HAHA. at first, he kinda shy but after that, he suits himself very well. and i like his attitude. macam pura pura malu. EHE. is he sweet, isn't he ? my mom says that he is okayy but sedo. haha . oh wait. sedo itu yang buat qys terpikat tuh. :D when i draw his face, i make it such a worst draw and he was laughing. then, i said that he has no butt. and i told him that i keep wondering if he has no butt. both of us laughing and i keep on teasing him. and he just laughing and laughing but seriously, it was the best outing for me. thanks to wana jerim and pesa for made my day.iloveyou all. :) and hell-yeah. he is not snobbish at all. he's different when i met him at tuition and library. completely different.and ilovehim now than before.

piece of me :)

You can rest easy tonight

everything is gonna be alright, I promise

go to sleep and dream of me tonight

everything may not be perfect, but at least we tried

so tonight sweet dreams and sleep tight

I've been trying so hard,can't get you out of my mind

and if this is how it has to be,just promise you won't forget me

and I'll leave you with this lullaby tonight

I know that this hurts you, it hurts me too

I wish there was something I could do to make it easier for you

sometimes it's tough, too soon to call it love but I wanted toyeah I wanted to,

but it's too late now to say all the wonderful things that I thought of you

so tonight sweet dreams and sleep tight

i've been trying so hard,can't get you out of my mind

and if this is how it has to be,just promise you won't forget me

and i'll leave you with this lullaby tonight

this is the poem that pesa had written.

to someone.

and i really don't know who is she.

she must be perfect for him.

because this is the gurl that he is looking for.

cannot forget her.

and i know, how much he loves her.

without telling me, without saying anything.

just read his poem and i know, he loves that girl damn much.

but, where is that girl ?

why she left pesa ?

what's wrong with her !

i try to get pesa very hardly,

but she just left him hanging.

i want pesa to be mine,

but she easily throw pesa away.

HAHAHA.

perfectly weird.

and hell-yeah.

i'm feeling like my heart is breaking into pieces right now.

but u can't get a piece of me. haha

i'm his's.

hee :D

just be friend with pesa.

it's gonna be okayy.

i have to be strong to fight and forget this love.

even i can't.

let it go awayy.

somehow,i can't still forget him.

it is permanent in my heart.

never fade away.

iloveyou nikmuhammadfaisalasyraf.

ohh rindunya :)

holiday is starting from now till next week :)

nothing special except spend more time with my family

and non-stop texting with pakcik pesa. :)

yes, i know my parents almost divorced without my permission.

but thanks to God.

it's alright now. and i want them to be happy and i'll make sure that they will never apart.

that's my promise :)

okayy, pesa ?

auww haha. back to normal.

the normality that i've been waiting for.

and now i was surrounding by my love for him.

i made the poem, ia untuk pesa actually.

but when he asked me, who is the guy. and i just said "xtau lah. buat mengarut saja "

such a crap. i want to admit it but you know, i was so scared. and that's the only words i can say.

stupid qys. qys silly.

kan kan kan ?

ohh lupa.

that nur amalin kamaruddin is so dead !

yesterday, "sunday" , at tuition, she made me such a horrible person.

ikuti kisah ini :)

amalin slutty : pesa,pesa,pesa ![ tgk kat qys ]

pesa: apa ?

amalin slutty : payuqq xdtg ke ? rindu kat payuqq.hee [ tersengih cam orang bodoh ]

pesa : xtahu.

QyS and atem : ohh wow ! tak tahu lah kalau rindu payuqq . euww ! [ chop2, bukan geli kat payuqq, geli kat bitch itu yang tade motif utk bcakap dengan pesa ]

amalin slutty : kita xboleh rindu kat boyfiend orang [ she was looking at me ]

amalin slutty : pesa kan, kita tak boleh rindu kat boyfriend orang.

pesa : entah.

ambek kau ! pesa ta layan kau. yuhuu padan muka :D kau memang sengaja kan. haha. have some sense of shame lah bodoh. malu jeh. haihh, apa salah miss boyfriend orang ?

bukan nk pegy kiss pun. grr ! menyibukk jeh kau ! geram aja nk balingg flip-flops neh dkt kau. tp nanti kau ngadu kat mama kau. then sure dia cakap, anak azliza neh kurang ajar, kan ?

come on lah, usik skit pun da nk kasi tahu mama. doii, kau sulung lah. haha xtahu lah nk cakap apa [bingung].

bytheway, aku rindu kema lah. dia playboy ey ? aiyaayayaya. budak ghost memang lah playboy.

so sick of it. HAHA jk jk.

so, i spend most my time at home or at parent's shop. nak pegy mall but jam .

fuhh amat2.

uwa !

ohh gtg. i want to take a bath hee:D

tata ily mwahmwah :-* *huggies*

mereka kata

"sori kay gapo2 pesa bwat. Bye . "

those sentences make me feel like an idiot.

aku tak perlukan sorry kau,topup kau, kebencian kau.

tp aku perlukan kau.

kau tak boleh kea jaga aku ?

aku rindu kau sgt.

mereka kata kau ini lelaki jahat.

kau selalu menyakitkan hati aku.

tapi aku xkisah.

mereka kata kau x ada perasaan.

tapi ketidakadaperasaan kau lah yang buat aku suka.

mereka kata macam macam.

aku menolak kata mereka.

dia bukan begitu.

pesa, kenapa jauh dr hidup qys .

qys terkapai kapai tanpa pesa.

menangis seharian.

qys mahu pesa.

boleh kah ?

no no no.

today is tuesday.tuesday is a day. haha.

pai was no difficult but i left 2 questions.

bullshit.

i said it was easy because pesa sch's exam earlier today than zainab.

so, he told me most everything about the paper.

so, thanks to him evrybody !

yuki, teesha, ash, eun, illy .

say thanks to my pesa.

wahh my lah sgt. (:

so, about that iylia mardhiana.

she's playingg a big role in my muvie.

haha.

but as a slutty flirty girl :p

u deserved that sygg :D

ohh my, don't pretend like u love me and

like u are so kind until ppl

missunderstood me.

bitchy !

oke, i don't want to go to teo's today,

not in mood lah.

exam lah weyh !

fo tomorrow, i'll be sitting for paper sejarah, kh and geog.

grr all of them are seriously difficult !

fuhh fuhh, insyaALLAH dpt buat.

ehe :D

so,to pesa.

awak, tenkiu dehs. app sgt u.

u bnyop tlg i.

psl eya tuh. ikup lah u nk cayo sapo.

i tao u xcayo ko i.

bubbye all. later oke :D